Sometimes I feel so weird. Angry. Angry to myself for being where I am. I have so many plans and dreams and thoughts and wishes, but I feel I do so little for that. The world is full of successful people and I believe I am one of them and I know that the time will come, when everything will fall on it’s places but I am just scared, what if I am not doing correct things for that moment?!
Today I saw on Negin Mirsalehi’s instagram as she walked the runaway for Dolce&Cabbana. DOLCE & GABBANA!! Oh My God! That is so amazing! And I thought “that girl is living my dream” literally.
OK. It might sound a little crazy, but It has always been my dream to become a face of D&G. (I got sad. They don’t even know me)
Sometimes people get scared of their wishes. They really do scare. Especially if it’s big enough. We keep it to ourselves, inside, being afraid to say it out loud, we are afraid to seem silly to others, afraid that our words won’t be approved by surrounded people… this way we keep our desires inside. We hide it first from others and then slowly from ourselves trying to accept the situation. We reduce ourselves to fit.
I am so against it. Maybe that is why it is so difficult. There is no “you can’t” in my world but only “you don’t want to”. Who said “wishes come true if you wish silently” bullshit! You should speak about that, fight for it, run for it so that everyone knows, so that the Universe knows, so that it rounds towards you!
And you know what I am doing right now? Nothing, I am studying – because tomorrow I have an exam.